bellwether

The last week has been a hard one for me. Fr. Wayne's memorial service was wonderful, but very finalizing. It was possible to mentally pretend that nothing had happened, and psyche myself into believing that when I went back to Claremont, and walked in to Macalister, he'd be there with a hug and a smile. Thursday deconstructed my mental walls, and let a huge pool of emotions well up. The lunch fiasco afterwards was probably a good thing, really, in that it allowed in a little bit of real world drama and humor to rip me away from my melancholy.

Additionally, I'm also incredibly stressed about lab and what's going to happen to us come summer when our funding runs out. No matter what, I'm going to have to find a summer job since lab will not have funding. We may have funding to continue come fall (with a lot of luck), but ... *sigh* Internship applications here I come... My advisor is pushing me to talk to Intel in Portland about a summer internship--this sounds like a good idea, although leaving LA for the summer would be a logistical nightmare.

In other news, fallowpastures, morganlf and I played Carcassonne for the first time, and loved it.